I've decided to start blogging since a recent trip to toronto left me obssessssssed with two blogs. one for a comedian, and the other to a psycho with "symptoms". It had me start to wonder.... "what happened to the old blog i had started a few years back when my brother was blogging and wanted me to blog as well?"..."will anybody even read my blog?"...."do i even have anything to say?"
who gives a shit. if you're here, it's because you want to hear what i have to say. not correct my spelling, or my grammar.... or my punctuation marks. So, please, don't bother talking about it. I too get a little red squiggle under my words that allows me to fix errors if i really want to.
Now. Toronto.
I love Toronto. I've always loved toronto. i would love to move to toronto at some point in my life. the shopping. the lights. the food. the fun. the concerts. the LIFE. Ottawa has become this cesspool of misery for me. it's cold, and boring and lifeless and routine. then i run into the problem where i realize..... i know two people in toronto. maybe three. the third being someone i do not talk to anymore. I have no family there... "Family". Seems to be a big reason that people don't move to places they want to move to....lack of family members.
My father's side of the family lives in Ottawa. Most of them anyway. To be exact, if you count marriage-to blood-relation, i have 1 "grandmother" (quotation marks because i use the endearing term very, very loosely.) 3 uncles, 3 aunts, 5 cousins, 5 second cousins... and we're jews so who knows how many more there are. Sounds like a nice big happy family, doesn't it? except no. i can't stand any one them. i don't see them. the though of them is repulsive. they are the most insane, lying, cheating, stuck up, gossipy, self serving fuckbags i have ever met. an example-i got a facebook message from a cousin to notify me that my grandfather died. wtf?
but i can't move to toronto, cause i have no family there. i wonder if the feeling if needing family in the same city you live in ever goes way...?at the moment, it's here, i need that thought, and while i don't tlk to my extended family, i do talk to my father. and he is here in the city. and he was in toronto....
well, then i would have a different postal code than i have now...
